I was
standing at the edge of the cliff, contemplating if I should jump or not. That
was definitely what I had signed up for, yet… standing at the edge with just a measly
flimsy rope tied to me feet… My body was
screaming at me to turn back and run away! Is this enough? Can I trust this rope to hold me safe? Will I become a figure in statistics of failed bungee jump accidents? Will it really be safe and keep its promises?
It sounds too good to be true...
On the other hand,
was the desire to be free above it all and fly, glide through the air. Falling
without any bounds, free-falling into what seems like infinity, this could very well be
the end. But with the faith and knowledge that the ropes are bound and that I am
safe. It was a mix of all possible emotions within a fraction of time…
If I could freeze that moment and
separate out all my thoughts, it is probably a bit of excitement, fear, joy,
curiosity, pushing one's limits, heart over mind, mind over body, priorities,
survival, again fear, resignation to possible death, FAITH, I guess I got to
know myself better finally when I took that leap!
It was the
scariest thing I had ever done. I thought I was definitely going to die for
those 5 seconds until I felt that tug of rope at my feet!
Those 5 seconds of
taking the plunge and leap of faith and surviving it, changed me!
It is a
constant reminder that if I look at my fears head on, there is a part of me
which wants to just jump, soar and be free from it all.
It
definitely helps to have these strong pillars in my life who seem to tell me “No matter what happens, You fall and
I’ll catch you. I am there for you”. Wonder what I would do without these people. It is a constant reminder from the universe that I am not alone and that I am being taken care of.
I guess all of my life are made of
these moments, especially something that's new
and scary.
I am standing at the cliff and looking at this scary valley down
below which might crush me into pieces if I take the plunge, and I wonder why
my body aches…
I see that I am neither standing on the cliff, nor have taken the leap. I
am somewhere in between hanging on to the tine slab for my dear life even though my safety harness
is secure…
I guess when
it is painful or a struggle, I simply need to have the faith and see that my
ropes are secure!
Bungee jumping
was and will forever remain one of my most special memories! Because, in some sense, I am bungee jumping everyday! :D