I asked her to be mine...

We had a complicated on-off relationship… and thinking about her, makes me go through a range of emotions ranging from joy, fun, love, bliss to betrayal, lies, manipulation, fakeness. I almost thought that we drifted apart, but I couldn’t completely let her go. Despite all the pain she put me through, she still meant something to me.

So, a small backstory – I have known her all my life as far as I could remember and she was my best friend, and we were inseparable and made each other so happy. My parents and little bro loved her. The friends I made later on liked her too, and I guess I felt proud that “my girl” was loved by all. She was the one who understood me perfectly and we were completely in sync!

I don’t remember the exact day when things started to turn around and I started feeling her pressure on me. The close people around me dint seem to like her much and I had to avoid her if I had to hang out with my new pals. She too ignored me a lot, and started putting me down. Oh those blatant lies which she told me. It stung. You know what’s worse than being lied and cheated to… ? Being lied and cheated by a person whom you considered to be your soulmate. She made me feel that I was not good enough and obviously I reciprocated the hurt and made sure I let her know my piece of mind!!!

I slowly started avoiding her which was difficult because she was someone I run into every single day. I was obnoxious, rude and adamant that I will not talk to her anymore. Though there were moments where I would secretly check in on her quietly to see if she was okay. I am sure she felt the same way, because I noticed that when I leave the room, I could feel her painful gaze follow me across the room speaking of a long lost friendship.

During this phase, a lot of our common friends did their best to patch up our relationship and they failed. Some things are just meant to be left broken…

Yet, I couldn’t avoid her any longer.

Something finally happened and both of us were put in a locked room with no way out. I had to confront her. We fought, screamed at each other, cried and finally somehow got in touch with the truth. We did drift apart, and I started to understand the circumstances which led to our break up. I guess she never lied to me. It was me who was not willing to accept her honesty and I kept pushing her aside. I realized how much I missed her and it felt so good to be back in her arms where I could just be myself. Though I am comfortable with a lot of other people, with her, my smile is a little more genuine, my joy seems even more blissful, my quirks get even weirder, my anger gets more passionate, and my shoulders are a little more relaxed. I realized how much I missed that… This was one relationship which I definitely shouldn’t have broken.

We finally met!

So now, after all these years, I looked at her and confessed how much I love her and asked her to be mine… she looks right back at me through the mirror with the beautiful happy smile and finally said “Yes!!!!”. My close family and friends cheered loudly!!

… and they lived happily ever after.

Happy International Women’s day! All you dear ladies, look into the mirror and love yourselves